#reverbbroads11 – Stupid is as stupid does…

“What is the stupidest thing you did this year? What about in your whole life? You can take stupid to mean: embarrassing, dangerous, funny, lame, whatever you consider “stupid.”

Hmm, this is a tough one…  It’s not that I think everything I do is exceptionally intelligent.  I just have qualms with the word “stupid”.  I suspect that stems from being called “stupid” by various people over the course of my lifetime.  It took a lot of internal work to get rid of that perception of myself.  So, looking back, I can’t bring myself to view anything I’ve done as “stupid”.  Unwise or regretful perhaps, but not stupid.  Yes, I know it’s semantics, but it makes me feel better…

So, for this year, I’d say my most “unwise” moment was not keeping better track of our tax refund money.  We ended up spending way more money than we should have, and we’re paying for it now (Get it?  “Paying” for it?.  Yeah, I crack me up…).  Our savings is dwindling, and it’s not pretty…  It’s gonna take some serious scrimping to get things back to normal, and neither myself or my husband are good at scrimping…

The most “unwise” moment of my life?  Yeah, that would be getting involved with my first husband…  It was not a healthy relationship, and I realized that fact pretty early on.  But due to my own issues (and just plain laziness, we had just moved in together, and I didn’t want to up and move right away again), I allowed myself to be manipulated way too often.  Although, as I mentioned in my post yesterday, when I look back at those regretful and painful parts of my life, I know they were also part of the path that has lead me where I am today.   Had I not had that relationship, pretty much everything in my life would be very different.  Better or worse?  Who knows…  But I do know the life I have now is wonderful, and I wouldn’t have it any other way (although a little more money would be nice.  Ironic, don’t ya think? (see previous paragragh)).  In that first relationship, events occurred that lead me to the town I currently live in, which I love.  My career path was started by a recruiter that found my then-bf’s resume online, who then redirected the recruiter to me when the position of interest wasn’t a fit for him.  The ending of that relationship lead to a path of rediscovery, which opened up the doors to my spiritual path and to many friendships that I hold dear today.  One of these friendships lead to an introduction to my husband, and as they say, the rest is history.  It’s difficult to hold regrets for something that even at the time was negative in many ways, lead to something great.  This doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten the pain, just that the history of it isn’t relevant anymore.

Now, if you want a funny embarrassing moment,  I guess I can provide that too.  ;)  Back in college, I was employed as local tech support in one of the computer labs.  My job consisted of pulling papers off the printers for pickup (and publicly embarrassing those that were stupid enough to print porn to a public, human-monitored printer), answering computer questions and rebooting the Macs running System 7 every 30 minutes.  One of our closing tasks was to check all the computers to make sure there were no floppy disks left in the hard drives (remember those?).  When we would find any, we’d put them in a lost & found box.  So, one day, a VERY cute guy comes to the counter and asks if he can look through the box of disks for one he accidentally left the day before.  So, I pulled out the box and asked him what it looked like, and he gave me a basic description.  As we’re looking, I discovered a disk matching his description and promptly exclaimed, “Look I found your dick!”.  Yes, I said dick.  The couple dozen students standing in line waiting for their printouts suddenly burst out in laughter along with my coworkers, while I turned beet red and preceded to crawl under the nearest table.  Yeah, don’t think I’ve ever had a Freudian slip that perfectly timed, even in the world of autocorrect. Never did see that boy in the lab again.  I suspect he wasn’t amused with the insinuation that he was mislaying his manly parts around the computer lab…

 

 

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